changing perspective

it's been a rough few months for this girl. and while i've come up with a 100 excuses and reasons why this or that is making a negative impact on my weight loss, it's all really come down to the fact that i've let other things take control and not said no. i've made bad food choices - eating too much and neglecting my self-control - and it shows on the scale. since jan 1, i've gained roughly 9 lbs. my bff says that it's "my new relationship," but i heartily argue against that. if it's anything, it's the stress of work and not really being happy in what i do there. i've let the stress control my choices, instead of taking the less traveled road. that's all there is.

i'm trying something new - writing down every day little things that are happening with work, etc., as a 2nd way of journaling. this blog helps, but it's hard for me to do in 5 minutes every day. if i carry it with me, i can see what every day was like, and better evaluate the days that i seem to go off the deep end. what happened that day, what event, etc., that might have triggered a bad choice. this should help me better monitor my emotions, and hopefully figure out new ways to deal with them. we'll see if it helps. so far this week, it seems to be doing the trick.