28 October 2010

for the record...

i am not getting married. at least, not that i'm aware of.

i made a comment on facebook the other day about david's bridal, and suddenly, the world thinks i'm getting married. gotta love gossip and the way people can read into things. so, for the record, i am not getting married.

my best friend gets married in 8 days. my brother is getting married in 6 months. another friend from college gets married 2 weeks after that. with the 2 i attended this year, and the prospective of 2-3 more for 2011, i'm over weddings. i'm over the stress. the travel. david's bridal. and i'm only in 2 of these weddings!

am i supremely happy? yes. do i think that adam and i will be together for a long long time? yes. neither of us in a rush to get to the next phase of our lives. we enjoy where we are. do we act like an old married couple? yes. but right now, the biggest step you'll see out of us is moving in together. and that's not even happening any time soon. at least not this year.

20 October 2010

women, food, and god

i've been on a kick of reading some of those self-help "diet" books - i've read Linda Spangle's Life is Hard, Food is Easy and a book that the WW.com editors recently wrote about called Mindless Eating: Why We Eat More Than We Think. both have been interesting reads, and have explored different areas of both emotional eating and the influence that crowds, perceived serving size, and other environmental factors have on what we choose to eat and how much we eat.

my ww/workout buddy kristen gave a book to read by Geneen Roth called Women, Food, and God, and she too has some interesting perceptions on how and why we eat the way we do. her concept is that our body has a natural weight, and that's the weight that it will return to when we give up on all our issues related to food and actually deal with what causes those food issues. as i'm interpreting, when we give up our food issues to god (or whatever we perceive as god), our body finds peace and returns to its natural weight. she does lay out some "eating guidelines," which serve as her "diet" guide.

1. Eat when you are hungry.
2. Eat sitting down in a calm environment. This does not include the car.
3. Eat without distraction. Distractions include radio, television, newspapers, books, intense or anxiety-producing conversations or music.
4. Eat what your body wants.
5. Eat until you are satisfied.
6. Eat (with the intention of being) in full view of others.
7. Eat with enjoyment, gusto and pleasure.

this all seems well and good, and the guidelines seem more common sense than anything. common sense in a perfect world. in a destressed, not full of work, boyfriends, pi phi, life kind of world. and i can keep coming up with excuses as to why these guidelines won't work for me.

the fact is that just like any other "diet plan," the success comes with how willing you are to commit to it. weight watchers works when i'm willing to track my food and put in the effort. if i make the commitment to eat without the tv and deal with how eating alone in a quiet space makes me feel, then i work through some issues in addition to my food issues. if i eat what my body wants (not excessive sugar, not oversized portions) when i'm hungry and until i'm satisfied, then yes, i feel better. but it's all about effort and my willingness to subscribe to this world view.

i'm trying to add these guidelines to my arsenal, but incorporating them to the other things i've learned from WW and my other reading. i can't just go all-out; there are too many other things i've learned that have helped me be successful so far.

15 October 2010

picking up the pieces

it's been a rough week. i'm tired, but not exhausted. work has been stressful, and my co-workers are making me feel like i'm making up a story about how much stress i'm feeling - or they're totally discounting my feelings, which makes me angry on top of stressed.

after the sugar rush incident of two weeks ago, i skipped WI because i knew i was up a LOT. i worked hard, and had come back down - still up some, but not as bad as it was. i had to miss WI last week because i had friends in town and didn't have time to find another meeting. and with the friends in town, there was lots of extra alcohol, eating out, and sweet treats. but i was proud of how active we were, and i even ran on a morning when i already knew we'd be walking a lot.

i knew that stepping on the scale last night was going to be a gain, but i was hoping for 2 lbs, not 3.6. which totally messed with my head and sent me into a food twilight zone. there was cereal, granola bars, raisins, grapes, and peanut butter involved. and some ice cream too. i can't tell you what all i ate.

so the scale this morning showed an even bigger gain, but i know what i did, and i'm better today. had a good, filling, healthy breakfast - no sugary syrup in my coffee to kick off the sugar rush - and have pretty much everything except my dinner planned (but do know that it'll be either homemade pizza or chicken sandwiches). i've clicked off my points (i've been using the points clicker over my paper tracker - much handier than the burden of writing right now), and look like i'll have plenty for dinner, no matter what we have.

my excuses for why the scale was up more than i expected:
- i weighed in at night for the first time in 3 months
- i had chinese food for lunch, and was probably full of sodium
- i weighed in at my old center, not my new center, so the scales are off

yes, they're excuses. but they make me feel a little better. they don't make up for my food fest last night, but all i can say is here's to being on track today and the rest of the week.

01 October 2010

sugar detox, day two

i'm fairly certain that i've eaten at least half a pie, a half gallon of ice cream, a 1-lb. bag of hershey's minis, and a wide assortment of muffins, brownies, and cake this week. by myself. simply because it was there. and because i'm a chicken, i didn't stand on the scale yesterday, but i know that i've gained back everything i've lost in the last 2 weeks. frustrating, simply because i stopped saying no and just ate like everyone around me. part from stress, part from exhaustion, part from the group mentality. and part from just plain ignoring my willpower and jiminy cricket voice.

so i'm in sugar detox. really, carb detox, but since sugar is the main culprit in my overindulging, it's the main carb on the list. i don't crave more sugar when i don't start in on it. so no pumpkin spice or vanilla lattes. no m&ms after lunch. no 100-calorie packs. i'm not going all out deprivation - because i know that doesn't work - but cutting out all the excess and especially the things that have been tripping the twilight zone.

i've done this with caffeine before, and while sugar is harder to avoid, it's not impossible. i had a good day yesterday - was able to steer clear of the sugar, and was able to have one WW fudge bar at the end of the day without feeling like i've overdone anything. i'm off to a good start again today - though i already know that i'm a little protein deficient because I'M STARVING! time to find a snack ;)