picking up the pieces

it's been a rough week. i'm tired, but not exhausted. work has been stressful, and my co-workers are making me feel like i'm making up a story about how much stress i'm feeling - or they're totally discounting my feelings, which makes me angry on top of stressed.

after the sugar rush incident of two weeks ago, i skipped WI because i knew i was up a LOT. i worked hard, and had come back down - still up some, but not as bad as it was. i had to miss WI last week because i had friends in town and didn't have time to find another meeting. and with the friends in town, there was lots of extra alcohol, eating out, and sweet treats. but i was proud of how active we were, and i even ran on a morning when i already knew we'd be walking a lot.

i knew that stepping on the scale last night was going to be a gain, but i was hoping for 2 lbs, not 3.6. which totally messed with my head and sent me into a food twilight zone. there was cereal, granola bars, raisins, grapes, and peanut butter involved. and some ice cream too. i can't tell you what all i ate.

so the scale this morning showed an even bigger gain, but i know what i did, and i'm better today. had a good, filling, healthy breakfast - no sugary syrup in my coffee to kick off the sugar rush - and have pretty much everything except my dinner planned (but do know that it'll be either homemade pizza or chicken sandwiches). i've clicked off my points (i've been using the points clicker over my paper tracker - much handier than the burden of writing right now), and look like i'll have plenty for dinner, no matter what we have.

my excuses for why the scale was up more than i expected:
- i weighed in at night for the first time in 3 months
- i had chinese food for lunch, and was probably full of sodium
- i weighed in at my old center, not my new center, so the scales are off

yes, they're excuses. but they make me feel a little better. they don't make up for my food fest last night, but all i can say is here's to being on track today and the rest of the week.