work and creepers

when i first started WW, i tried to keep it under wraps at the office. not that it was a big deal, but it sort of was. i did, however, confide in two of my closer friends... bad news, because they're pretty much the office gossips. anyway... lately, it's become a lot more obvious that i've lost a good amount of weight, and people have started commenting on it. there is one lady in particular who makes a really big deal out of it. she works remotely a lot, so she's in the office maybe once a week, unless she's teaching at a client site. she hasn't been to the office in about 3 weeks, and yesterday made a HUGE deal about how i looked. it makes me feel good, but she does it in a way that EVERYONE in the office knows my business (aka, she's really loud). she then proceeded to tell me that when she was in her early 20s, she lost about 80 lbs and the hard part for her was the attention from men. apparently, some guy told her he would drink her bath water. ew. ew. ew.

i'm not quite sure what to take from the conversation yesterday. i definitely don't look forward to creepers hitting on me, if that's what her point was. i'm excited that i've done really well in my journey toward a new me, but it's still weird when people notice. i don't know what to think most of the time, and we all know how horrible i am about receiving compliments. i don't have much practice in this area... the looking cute and flirting part. i guess i'll just have to take it as it comes...

it's the bangs

i have been friends with my best friends for 11 years, since we started high school. 4 of the 5 of us have our birthdays within 30 days of each, and we're well into the heart of birthday season. so the scene: bowling party to celebrate my friend's 25th. a bunch of people who we haven't seen since high school are there, including friend's older sister. my best friend and i were chatting with her, when she looked at my best friend and said "what's your name? i don't think i remember you." my other friend popped off, "well, she did get bangs." my best friend has lost 27 lbs over the course of the last year, and doesn't really look like she did in high school. but no, sis didn't recognize her because of the bangs. not the weight loss.

surprisingly, sis wasn't the only one not to recognize my bff. i thought it was awesome. here is a girl who is at the skinniest she's ever been in her life, and people don't actually recognize her anymore. i hope that day comes for me. it would absolutely be liberating, and feel like i've really made a change in how i live my life.

shoes shoes shoes shoes shoes

i've noticed something lately: i've become the girl that wears heels with her jeans.

i was never the girl that wore heels with her jeans, let alone heels. in fact, i didn't even own a pair of pumps until i started actively job interviewing during my senior year of college. i was the girl with 2 pairs of shoes: flipflops and sneakers. that was it. and that worked for me. besides, heels weren't comfortable shoes, and believe me, life was all about comfort.

i've been working full time for three (gasp!) years now, and have slowly developed this love for heels, but really only over the last year. it started with that first pair of pumps in indiana, and then i found some other cute flippy shoes - though they were all still flats. then i came back to colorado and hit what can only be called my fashion low (well, in terms of work attire - i lie, all over). i was at my heaviest weight, and things didn't fit right. pants, shirts, shoes. flipflops were easier.

as i've lost weight, shopping has become enjoyable again. over the last year, i've bought myself a number of new pairs of shoes, and pretty much the only thing i wear to work is a heel. i have my awesome sparkly shoes, my new birthday sandals, my ankle boots, and my generic black pumps. if i had the money, i'd have a crazy assortment of shoes.

i'm not sure where this girl came from, but i like her. i think i'll keep her. and the shoes.

i did it!

well, it's official. i got my 75 lb magnet last night at meeting - holy moley! i've lost 75 lbs in just about 9 months. that's CRAZY!! i still have over 100 lbs to lose (to be at a healthy BMI), but it feels amazing to know that i've done this much, so a few more won't be that hard. :D

i've been getting some great compliments this past week, and it's nice to hear. one lady at our meeting last night said that she could see a tremendous change, just in the 5 weeks that she's been gone. that made me feel really great, mostly because i still don't see a lot of the change myself. there are little things - smaller pants, shirts that don't gap ridiculously, etc. - but i still have a hard time noticing how big the change really is. but i'm more than pleased, and happy to take the compliments. because maybe now, i can actually believe them. :)

just 4 days until my birthday!