feeling good.

it's been a long time since i've just been happy. happy with how i look, how i feel, what's happening in my life. where i haven't felt like there's some aspect of something to complain about. and right now, right at this moment, i'm happy. content. pleased. not looking for something else to "complete me." i like feeling like this.

tomorrow, adam and i celebrate our 1-year dating anniversary. seriously, the fastest year of my life, but i feel like i've known him forever. it's a good feeling, to feel so completely yourself around someone. there are really only a handful of people that i know that i feel this way when i'm with them, and it's different to have a man in that circle (who is not my brother and/or father). i like it.

while i'm not at my goal weight, or really that close to it, i feel better about my self-image than i have in a long time. and i'm not so worried about the weight coming off. i've been making better choices on a daily basis, and even though i've been "off-plan" - as in i haven't been tracking - i have been snacking less, and my workout routine remains consistent. i'm definitely on a plateau, but for the first time in a year, i'm not really upset about being here. i've come a LONG way.

i'm jazzed about the new program. i'm not one for change, as referenced in my last posting, but i am looking forward to this change. i enjoy getting new perspectives on this battle with food that i fight consistently, and i like hearing about the latest and greatest in science research (yes, i'm a big science nerd. don't act surprised). maybe the new look and the force to relearn what i "know" will push me off this plateau. if it doesn't, then i continue to maintain. and you know what? i'm a-okay with that.