pointsapalooza

no wonder i keep gaining weight. or staying the same. i am not focused, and for whatever reason, have had a really hard time sticking to my guns and away from the snacks. i haven't had this problem until recently, and getting mad at myself on the scale isn't motivating me to get back on track. the week starts out great, but by the weekend, i'm over it. just blase about the whole system. i don't know if i'm bored - or just PMSing - or just in a funk, but i really need to get over it. going up on the scale does not help with the whole "getting to goal" thing.

i know i'm comfortable where i am. my clothes fit great, i'm getting attention, and people actually comment that they can't see how i'd have more to lose. while this is not unwelcome, it's not motivating me to keep pushing forward. i've watched my mom celebrate her goal, and making lifetime, and i want to be there. how badly, though?