my scale is broken

i have a bad habit of weighing myself before i go to my weekly meeting. i don't know why, but it helps me deal with whatever the "real" outcome is when i step on the scale at WW. i can brace myself for a gain, or gauge what my loss is going to look like. and for the last couple weeks, my scale has been unresponsive when i step on it (it's digital). the battery's obviously dead, and i haven't taken the time to replace it, but i feel like i'm floundering without the ability to weigh myself.

isn't that silly? we spend so much time at WW talking about how the number on the scale is just a number and we shouldn't let us define us. yet, even after 2 years, i depend on my little scale at home for some extra reinforcement that i'm on the right path. or to serve as the knife in the heart so that i don't get extra emotional on the scale at the meeting. stress weighs more, you know.

even as i sit here writing this, i have to laugh. i'm so not defined by the number of my weight - i could actually care less if i go up or down every week - but i'm feeling lost without my scale. i never have been a big fan of a surprise - i always went searching for my christmas gifts in advance - maybe that quick step on the scale to see where things will land is just one more defense mechanism against the surprise attack.