wow.

i did something tonight that i haven't done in a really really really long time. i ate myself sick. i've been extra snacky for the last week or so, and have a good idea as to why that's been occurring (along with the constant craving for chocolate and salt). tonight, however, was different. i ate and ate and ate, and for whatever reason, couldn't quench that thirst for food. now, i'm laying in bed, sick to my stomach, and not even wanting to sleep because i feel so gross.

i'm not sure what brought it on. i'm not emotional about anything, and it really truly could just be hormones, but it's very odd that i couldn't bring myself to stop. i was very conscious of what i was doing, but my stomach overpowered my will power tonight.

it happens, but i need to make sure i don't let it happen again this week. i've already had a big food week, what with the eating out i've been doing, so if i see a gain this week, i know it's all my fault. hm. no good.